Tonight is the opening night for the This Is It tour; I still laugh each time I hear it, and all of us are emotionally nervous. The guys are hyper; which is nothing new. We’ve seen them like this before. Niall and Andrea are racing each other on segways, Liam and Zayn with Nicole and Perrie are riding around on golf carts through the arena. Louis and Eleanor are messing around with his skateboard outside the venue, and Harry is trying to escape like always. Honestly, the guys are all over the place; and it’s nothing new to me. I’m even trying to help Paul keep Harry here; little upset that he’s not listening to me. Especially with it getting closer to show time.
In the dressing room, the guys are busy with vocal warm ups and changing while waiting to get their hair done by Lou. Yep, the entire crew is with us again. The girls and I are just joking around making fun of them all. Andrea is trying to fix Niall’s hair since he’s already messed it up. “Don’t touch what you can’t afford,” he teases messing up hers. The guys get their final notice that it’s almost show time, and they have to go. The girls say our good lucks with quick hugs and kisses.
Harry holds me as tightly as possible. “Harry! We have to go!” yells Louis.
“Five more minutes!”
“The show starts in one!”
“I’ll see you after the show, Love,” he kisses me one last time before running off.
“Good luck, Harry!” I yell after him. I listen to them running down the hall excitedly screaming and singing. After that Paul comes to take us to our seats; a private section in front of the VIP area. I’m surprised at how the fans are reacting to us. I’m surprised the guys can still pull in a younger crowd. They ask us for pictures with them, and I really like talking to them. I’m almost tempted to ask Paul to let some of the girls to hang with us.
“COLLEEN!” I hear someone scream. I turn my head to the direction of the voice to see Jesy running over to me.
“Jesy!” I scream back. “What are you doing here?!”
“The guys wanted us to surprise you!”
“Jade and Leigh-Ann are on their way,” she smiles hugging me. The others make their way over pulling me into bone crushing hugs.
“How are you, Colleen?” Leigh-Ann asks. Before the wedding they found out everything. I gave Per permission to tell them since they kept pestering her; and couldn’t get over what I had done to myself.
“I’m doing well. Really well,” I answer as we hold onto each other’s arms smiling.
“And what’s this little one?” Jesy asks pulling my hair to the side. Shit. I widen my eyes gripping my neck.
“It’s… It’s nothing… Really…”
They all shake their heads. “Married life seems to be suiting you,” Perrie says. “How did we not notice this earlier?”
“Maybe it’s because you were too focused on Harry’s,” I stick my tongue out.
“You gave Harry one?” Jade teases.
“Several,” Andrea winks.
“Girls! Stop it,” I whine. They all giggle as I blush pulling my hair back down.
The lights go out and the show finally begins! The guys open with Kiss You, What Makes You Beautiful; some of our favorites. Truly Madly Deeply, Story of My Life and Over Again.
Each time they sing our individual favorite songs we are pulled on stage one by one. Little Things is first for Andrea, and I’m last, like always, as Harry sings Irresistible to me. But when they start singing Better Than Words the five of us lose it. It’s the song we all could never get over when Midnight Memories came out. Niall makes Andrea go crazy when he points to her during his part. Through the Dark follows then Live While We’re Young, One Thing and ends with Best Song Ever.
Louis speaks, “You guys are amazing!”
“We love you all!” Niall shouts.
“Thank you to each and everyone one of you for your support through the years!” Harry screams. “We can’t thank you enough! We will make this the best tour ever!”
“Now,” says Liam calming the crowd. “We hope you like the next song, and the surprise that comes along with it.” The eight of us girls look back and forth between each other confused.
Don’t Forget Where You Belong starts to play and everyone goes crazy. Pictures of us are being displayed on the big screen behind the guys. The photos include our vacation, the weddings, Harry and I at the Little Mix show, the boys with their fans, some of the girls with the fans, our families; and funniest of all, the boys attacking each other at my wedding. I wish I could live that day over and over; I loved how they threw cake at one another, Niall getting drunk off his ass and Andrea not being able to help him since she was as drunk as him. I turn to the girls and they all pull me into their arms. Every embarrassing moment you could imagine is up there; like Harry getting trapped in my pool house, and Louis and Liam playing horrible pranks on the others. As the song continues our boys look straight into our eyes as we all tear up. I can’t believe how far we’ve come with the guys, and this is only the beginning to the rest of our lives.
We aren’t even two weeks into the tour when I realize something. “Harry?!” I yell worried through the hotel room.
“Yes, baby?” I wait until he’s in the same room as me. “What is it?”
“I haven’t gotten my period…” He just stares at me. “Harry! Say something!”
A huge smile spreads across his face, “Oh my gosh, Colleen!” He runs over to me scooping me into his arms then kisses me.
“I’m glad you’re smart enough to know what I meant,” I laugh.
“We have to tell the others!”
“No!” I yell; he looks at me confused. “No,” I shake my head.
“Harry,” I say calmly, “I don’t want anyone knowing unless we’re certain. I don’t know how possible it is; but, you know, it could either be a false alarm, or…”
“It might not last…”
“You mean like a miscarriage?” he asks a scared.
“Yea. Like a miscarriage…”
“Why would you say something like that?!”
“I don’t know how my body will react to this. I don’t think anything will happen,” I say taking his hands in mine. “But just to be sure. My mom always says that you shouldn’t share the news unless you’re at least four, maybe five, months along. I thought this would be easier to explain,” I sigh.
“O-okay,” he says hesitantly. “Okay,” Harry smiles. “We’ll wait. What should we do about doctors and all? I mean we have to make sure the baby is okay though, right?”
“Right. Maybe we should at least tell Paul. He’ll probably be good at keeping that from the others.”
“And what will our excuse be every time we stop at a hospital?” I laugh.
“We… We could… Maybe… Maybe we can just make it that we’re doing a monthly date night thing!”
“That sounds good,” I laugh wrapping my arms around his chest.
“I can’t believe I’m going to be a father.” I look up at Harry as I rest my chin on his chest. “We’re going to be a family.”
*Five months later*
I can’t believe we’re already halfway through the tour, and I couldn’t be any prouder of the guys. They have accomplished so much in their time as One Direction. I still get a feeling of guilt when I think about how they had to deal with me after the incident; but to also think about how Harry and I are going to be parents makes it feel like nothing ever happened. My scars are barely visible, and my heart is healed.
The baby is doing really well; no signs of any problems. Everyone, as far as we know, thinks Harry and I have been going on monthly date nights through the countries. My doctor meets us at the nearest hospital when it’s time for the next appointment.
“Hey, Love,” Harry walks over to me as I stare into the mirror. “Look at that baby bump,” he laughs placing his hand over my stomach. “You ready to tell them?”
“Yea,” I smile.
Harry and I have asked the guys and the girls to our hotel room. “What’s this about?” Andrea asks.
“Just wait until everyone gets here,” I laugh. Louis and Eleanor are the last to arrive.
“Alright, tell us what’s going on!” Niall yells.
“Colleen and I have some news to share.”
“I’m pregnant,” I get straight to the point.
“Oh my gosh!” Perrie runs over to me. “Why didn’t you tell us earlier?!”
“Because we wanted to make sure that it would last…” I say twiddling my thumbs.
“Just in case,” Harry says calmly. “How do I say this… You’re right, Colleen, this is hard to explain.”
“I think we understand, you two,” Perrie says. The rest of the girls hug me before they start to put their hands on my stomach. “Do you know what the sex is?”
“No. We want it to be a surprise,” answers Harry. “I think it’s a girl, though.”
“I’m hoping for a boy,” I laugh.
“Guys, are you gonna say anything?” Andrea turns to the boys who seem to be in complete shock. They all stare at me.
Louis is the first to speak, “I can’t believe you two are the first to get pregnant out of us all.” Everyone laughs.
“When did this happen?! How far along are you?! Is the baby healthy?!” Liam asks excitedly.
“We think it happened when we were on our honeymoon… We kind of forget to use protection the last night…” I say blushing. “I’m five months along,” I recover.
“And the baby is perfectly healthy,” Harry adds pulling me into him.